Missing my mom..........

It comes in waves, some days better than others..........but today I am missing my mom.  I don't know why, but songs about heaven always make me sad.  I love thinking about her there and the fact that she is whole and happy, but it just makes me sad that I won't ever see her again this side of heaven.  Today a man at church sang a song about heaven and it made me cry.  It was kind of embarrassing because it wasn't the kind of song that someone typically cries listening to.

I think sometimes people think you should "snap out of it" by a certain point- like you can put a time table on grief. I remember two weeks after my mom died a pastor asked me if it was getting easier.  Really?  Um, no!  My mom had just died a very sad death.... much too young.... AND it was right at Mother's Day.  No, the grief was just getting started. 

Miscarriage is another loss that people often don't "get".  I guess if you have never experienced one you just can't understand.  I have had several miscarriages, but the one I had the fall of 2011 was really hard.  I think seeing the baby made it even more real.  I am VERY thankful for our new little blessing, but it doesn't take away the sadness of the ones that we lost.  I was looking at him the other day and overwhelmed at the love I have for him.  I started thinking about the babies we have lost and thought, they would have been just as wonderful as he is.  I know God is sovereign.  I am thankful that He gave us Macheus, but it is still sad thinking of the ones that we don't have.

I recently came across a couple of good articles on loss and grief.  I thought someone reading my blog might could benefit from them.

http://christiancounselingmadison.com/our-community/learning-center/archived-articles/moving-beyond-grief-and-loss/

http://www.recover-from-grief.com/7-stages-of-grief.html

"Weeping may tarry for the night, but joy comes in the morning."  Psalms 30:5